I am depressed. that's the word i'm going to call it. but i don't feel like it's what i'm feeling. i think i want to be mad, but i'm not going to be. i don't know anymore. i don't care anymore. I'm tired of everything. i hate how humans have feelign that contradict each other...

anyways, my birthday party i had yesterday was shit. no, not because i didn't get the gifts i wanted- (i actuaclly didn't want anything because i bought myself some marval and called it a day)i wasn't expecting much. and though the cake was werid, because it was a CUPCAKE... cake with yellow vannila icing... that didn't agree with me at all. and i was too sugary that the icing was hard.
The reason of my negative mood: it was because of a very close friend, who has NO respect what so ever to my family or to the poeple around him. I understand he wanted to have fun, but he hardly even came over to say hi, how's it doing, rather he went off and made a fool of us. Got me and my family kicked out of the bowling alley. and some other stuff that's more deeper. but wtf.







But whatever, you know.